I saw this picture and it really just looked like a poem, ya know?
So, here's my late night rambling of a poem-thing.
(Sorry - this isn't a happy ending poem as of right now. :) It didn't flow right to continue into that, so it is what it is.)
I'm Not Okay
4/22/14
That
unguarded moment
When
my shield
Drops
-
And
there you are.
“Are
you okay?”
You
saw my frown
And
the way my shoulders sagged
'Cause
I thought
No
one was watching...
While
at the same time I was wishing
Someone
would notice.
“I'm
fine
Just
tired.”
My
practiced smile falls into place
As
I list
All
the reasons why
I'm
fine
Just
A
little tired right now.
Those
entangled words
Slip
past my lips.
Part
truth -
Oh,
But
mostly not.
I
think you believe me;
If
you didn't
You'd
probably try to probe
Deeper.
You're
good at it,
But
I never give you that chance.
See,
We
all have those words.
Those
words
We
hide behind
At
the times
We
are the lowest.
What
are your words?
Mine
are these,
Clear
as day,
But
you don't see them
For
what they really are.
But
that's my fault.
I've
gotten really good at pretending.
Heh,
So
good that half the time
You
wouldn't even know
I'm
repeating in my head,
“It's
okay.
I'm
okay.
It's
okay.
I'm
okay.”
Over
and over
To
stop my other thoughts
From
sinking me
Deeper
than I want to go.
I
don't often let my guard slip
Low
enough for you to see...
But
Despite
all this...
I
want you
To
chase behind the words,
"I'm
fine."
To
see
If
the words are real
Or
If
they're an empty shield.
Please...
But
right now
All
I do is smile and laugh
While
we dance around
The
truth...
I'm
not okay.
I'm
ready
To
give up
If
I have to...
But
please
If
I really have to
Will
you
Please
stay with me?
~ZA
It's wonderful! Very relatable. Mind if I share it on G+ and/or FB?
ReplyDelete*Smiles quietly* I'm glad ya like it, Kya.
Delete^_^ I'd be very pleased if you reshared it.
~ZA