Seeing Now

Three of my best friends as we played on the sand dunes.

 

            I've been thinking about growing up lately. . .

 

 

 Seeing Now 10/1/12

 

I never did appreciate what I had fully

Until it began to change.

I'd spend so much time thinking about coming events,

That I'd sometimes forget the good things I had

In that moment.

 

Those moments are slipping away

And I'm beginning to see how many I've wasted.

Just because I had them in my hands

Didn't mean they were less valuable

Than the ones just beyond my finger tips.

Oh, but it seemed that way at the time. . .

It's only now I see it.

 

At times all I want to do is wrestle time into submission

And never leave this point.

I know there's so much more to see-

That there's so much for God to use me for-

But in all truthfulness,

It hurts so much.

 

It hurts to leave now behind

Because I'm leaving parts of childhood-me lying there.

Now and then pieces come,

And I try to pretend that it can be as it was

But there is no going back.

Only forward into an unknown.

 

I can't change what is coming,

Or stop the time that slips away in dancing tendrils,

But I can treasure the moments I have left,

Such as they are.

It's not as if my story has ended;

I'm just walking up a different mountain,

Fording an unknown river,

Walking into a different chapter-

It's all part of growing up.

 

~ZA

 

Copyright © 2012 Ophelia M. Flowers
The quote on the picture is not my own.